Not a chance! I am asked many times why I let others know of this disorder. Why not hide it away and attempt to be normal?
My simple answer, that I can admit was not easy to discover, is that such a disorder is created BY secrets, so if I choose to continue to live in those secrets I’m giving myself the same poison over and over again. I choose to learn from life, to glean things from my experiences both good and bad, and in that, I have to come to terms with who I am. The many “me’s” that make up Cat are the many parts that make me unique! That make us unique.
Everyone has a story. Everyone hurts at some point in their lives, or they experience wonderful times. Each pathway that we take, either dark, dreary, and full of fallen trees to block our path, or lighted with sunbeams and full of easy walkways, makes us who we are. I refuse to become a burden to society just because I had bad things happen to me in my past.
My goal is to overcome these things and make what I developed as a survival method, into a gift that I can use and teach others with.
My son said, the other day, that I am working to do just that. He said, “Mom started off with something that most people give into and she’s made it into something she can use, that can be positive in her life…” while talking to his sister. I was so proud that he saw my goal in the light!
Another day, another part of my journey behind me. Who can I touch with my story today?