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for April 2009
Seeing the World
Ever have a day where you feel you can see what’s about to happen in the future as it slowly unfolds before you…and you COULD change things up as you go but if you did, it just wouldn’t be a “real” day?
I totally know I have issues with “magical thinking” but today has been surreal in this way. I can see things at work, at home, etc. as they are moving along at a pace that seems to be in slow motion. I feel like an outsider looking in, but I feel very in control and wise about my decisions. I guess that’s a good thing, in itself. Confidence has been key with my dealings at work lately. I see big things for me and I continue to keep things balanced and organized so that I can accomplish those things in the near future!
Strength
It takes strength to admit that you need help. I learned this later in my process of healing and it was and still remains a hard lesson. I tend to be very independent, especially after my divorce, and this creates a bit of frustration from those around me.
Luckily I have a great support system and I continue to meet friends and even coworkers that try to understand me as a human being and not analyze me as “someone with MPD”. I think the fact that I present myself as ME first, even if I am WE or US, makes the difference. I joke about my condition and the struggles so that I can keep a smile on my face. This opens the door for questions from those that are curious and yet afraid they might offend me if they ask details about my diagnosis.
I guess the old saying that my mother always repeats is definitely truth. “Take it a day at a time, dear.”