The change in weather has helped my mood quite a bit. Although we get snow/rain a lot during March, in between it’s great to hear the birds have come back and the sun shining through my windows. I have been able to open up the house a few times a week now.
I really enjoy how spring creeps in here. When I lived in Texas it would seem like summer would HIT and I wondered how spring got away so quickly. Now we come up to holidays like Easter and then school ending for the children. I hope to make a trip to Texas this summer…and our kiddos get Spring Break later (ski town) so that’s coming up for us. I think it’s a week away.
I’ve stayed indoors for a bit and I need to really push myself to get out. The other day the principal called over my son being late to class. They get pretty strict about that and I know why they do it…but when he called, for some reason, my “littles” and “middles” (younger alters) felt like THEY were being punished. I don’t know if it’s my way of protecting my own children or if I feel guilty that my son is just like me, at times. (I realize when I’m more lucid that it’s great that he’s like me and I’m doing good…but when depressed and switching it’s hard to see that.)
I wrote recently about being late and then this happened. I try to encourage my children to be prompt because, essentially, this shows how much they care about a certain thing or school in general. I truly feel it does.
My husband was home when I got off the phone with the principal. I was expected to show up immediately to show our son how serious being late over and over again was…but I couldn’t bring myself out of it. I cried so hard and had no idea why. It was confusing yet cleansing.
My husband stepped in and said he would handle things. I ended up staying home, hiding some under the covers, and working my way out of the feelings. I’m not sure why school punishments and school issues get me so hard but I do know that I’m thankful for my husband–he’s so damn patient when it comes to my little quirks and I’m very thankful for him.
I absolutely hate it when I end up waking up late. Today, my son came into the room and said, “mom, you awake?” because he woke up late and didn’t realize, until later, that nobody else was up.
It makes me feel irresponsible and lazy. I don’t like that feeling.
Hell, I know it happens to everyone at some time but I can’t imagine anyone having a decent start to the day this way. I used to live my life “running late” for almost everything. Even in high school, teachers would give me more time for work. I realized one day that when I make others wait on me it means that I care more about myself than others.
When I run late, it means I feel I’m more important and worth waiting for…and others time is not as valuable. I’m not talking a day here and there. I’m talking chronic lateness here. Running late displays a sort of unorganized self-centered attitude that I do not want.
I’ve GOT to get my alarm back. I don’t like having these feelings about myself. It’s GREAT to be confident in who you are but I don’t want others to suffer because I can’t get up on time. Mind you, this is the first day in ages that I’ve had this happen but it still affects me the same. I’ll get through it and be fine but I had to discuss my feelings of “late” because I used to be chronically late in the past.
Do you feel being late is self-centered? Do you find that sometimes, being late is just laziness? Do you think there are different kinds of “late”?
It’s almost Spring and I’m all into the C&C Monday trip today. I love visiting new blogs and C&C Monday is a helpful way to take time out each week and visit blogs you know, and some you don’t. Make a special visit today to your FAVORITE blog–whichever it is–and make a comment saying why you love the blog. Why not brighten someone’s day?
I plan on visiting a few of my favorites and catching up on their posts, then leaving a message for them. I hope to find NEW blogs by visiting their blogroll and randomly clicking a blog there. If I like their blog, why wouldn’t I enjoy one they choose?
Try it and don’t forget to get added to the C&C Monday Blogroll! Just request it and it’s done. Add links back each week and in return, you get a link each week and permanently on other’s sites.
Happy Click & Comment Monday!
Oh, don’t forget to bid on my rental space. I have forgotten to put that up for bid a few weeks now but it’s up!Â
I have had a bad experience in the past with the Depo Provera shot. I was asked to participate in a class action lawsuit but if I remember correctly, it was out of NY and I never jumped in. Even my mother looks back to that time I was on that shot and how it affected me.
Apparently there are other medications out there that are of concern. The seattle personal injury attorney has information on the Ortho Evra birth control patch and side-effects that have affected others. I say, why not be informed? I know any and all medications that you put into your body can be an issue and I’m really good about reading the possible side-effects that can happen. The bad thing is at times, I get hyper-sensitive with it. I try really hard not to assume the side-effects will happen but after such a bad time with the other shot, I pay attention.
Do you read the labels or do you just trust your doctor?
Here is a photo of Treasure Falls from yesterday. DutchBitch wanted to see it. I’ll have more to share soon. 
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