Public Eye

  • Posted on March 30, 2010 at 8:19 am

I was approached last year, during a hectic time for me, by a producer that wanted to look at following me around in a little bit of a ‘reality tv’ type of show. At the time it was flattering to know that he’d want to show my successes with MPD and becoming more balanced, to the world.

I am no stranger to TV, as you know if you’ve read this blog long, I was on TV a few years ago on the Mike & Juliet Morning Show. I had it linked but they no longer have the archive set up. Incidentally, my brother has a copy and I plan to link it directly on my site soon.

I got in touch with the producer and told him that I didn’t want that type of exposure, right then, due to my children’s ages and the public eye that some reality shows brings upon us. I spoke to my boss, then, also, and asked him what he thought (since I had previously told several co-workers of my diagnosis). He asked me a good question, that to this day I feel helped aid me in making a good decision, “how would you benefit from this show being put on the air?” and then he said, “how would the producer and others benefit, from the same?” basically.

I decided that I wouldn’t truly benefit, and as selfish as it sounds, I have to keep that in mind when making a decision that big. My children are a big part of me (outside children, not inside) and my life, and I didn’t want the intrusion. Also, the fact that many are helped by my blog is incredible to me and I don’t want to lose control of that part of my life. A show like that would be so exposing, I think, that it could trigger an imbalance and why would I set myself up for that when I’ve worked so hard to find balance?

Again, it was flattering, but I didn’t feel that others would benefit in the same way that they do by reading my blog, so I turned it down for now.

Would you have jumped on this opportunity or do you feel it would be another way for television to ‘fantasize’ the truth about MPD?

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The View Brand Ambassador

  • Posted on February 20, 2010 at 2:21 pm

ABC Daytime has me talking about The View and I will be participating in a 4 week campaign, following the show and discussing the topics that are covered. I’m looking forward to this and hope that you enjoy my banter on the subject. Mom Central is having a sweepstakes and you can enter here.  You could win a trip to NY to be in the audience of The View.

I have watched this show undergo many changes through the years and watched it a little…but I plan on devoting some time to this campaign and finding out more about the show and the topics covered.

Disclosure: I am a participant in a Mom Central campaign for ABC Daytime and will receive a tote bag or other The View branded items to facilitate my review.

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Monday, Monday…la la, laa la la la

  • Posted on February 1, 2010 at 12:09 pm

I don’t know why, but Mondays have a special place in my heart. I had a rough weekend but I am determined to change the path. I can choose, now, I’m not stuck going the way someone leads me. I will follow God’s lead, and not allow others to give me the desire to stray.

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Mom’s Wise Advice for the New Year

  • Posted on January 1, 2010 at 11:31 am

Even if it’s cut/pasted from a site, like she told me, my Mother has always had WONDERFUL advice. I sometimes even use it! She sent me an Email that said:

Now that a new year is upon us, it’s a great time to clear out the old so that we can bring in the new.

People and relationships: Clear out the energy vampires in your life who drain and/or exhaust you. Spend more time with the people in your life who support and energize you. Cut back on the amount of time you spend with drama queens, constant complainers, whiners, “meanies”, and “gimmes“. Start saying “no” to people and commitments that no longer fuel you. It’ll feel a bit uncomfortable at first, but it will make room in your life for more fulfilling relationships.

That seems like super advice, to me.  How often do you have someone in your life that you think is helping you–when all along they are truly only draining you of all your energy and keeping at you constantly with needs FROM you instead of assisting you in a balanced way?  I have friends that are “gimmes” but they balance it out by letting me be a “gimme” at times, too.  It’s those that only “gimme” and never give back that are the ones you should rethink being friends with.

I have always been one to think I could help others or save them from themselves…it usually gets me into friendships or relationships that are troubling.  I realize now that unless someone desires that change in their lives, truly desires and is willing to take steps to change, they will remain the same forever.  I’m all about second chances (and third, or fourth) to those that I know want to change.  I feel it’s important, though, to sever ties with those that only want to take, take, take.

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Neighbors Deux

  • Posted on December 27, 2009 at 4:04 am

I recently wrote about my downstairs neighbors, now I am awakened by a random neighbor crying and pleading outside my window in the parking lot. Thankfully I am not on the first floor.

I haven’t lived the apartment life before, It has been over a year now since I moved in and it’s been extremely quiet where I live. I like it but I also realize that when you live among so many people there will be times that you are privy to outbursts or domestic issues. It’s always upsetting to wake up hearing a pleading cry outside your window or catching the yelling sounds of a stranger.

I know enough about times like those not to step in, but to observe from afar, and if I feel someones life in danger or the issue get out of hand, help is a phonecall away. It doesn’t mean I don’t want to help. I just know 9 times out of 10 they are so emotionally involved that my stepping in is not only a danger to me, but also would more likely increase the heightened emotions, not calm them.

I lay here in bed wondering what the story is behind all the crying. I won’t sleep well after this. It brings back feelings I’ve not felt in a long time. Touches nerve endings that I thought were deeply buried. There’s something primal about hearing these sounds that are not your own. Like you are in the middle of someone elses movie.

I’ll try to sleep now…it’s quiet and I saw them walk to their apartment. Feels helpless to not know the reasons. Feels odd to have memories like that surface in coordination with the event. I feel strong enough that I will be safe and secure and my littles or worried parts won’t feel threatened. It takes a little “self talk” to move forward sometimes. I hope it stays quiet.

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